I have never felt like this before.
Tremendous stress is overwhelming me.
School...Scout...life...everything.
My insides are ripping and I don't think people realize how bad it is.
I have tried so long to keep it in.
I'm fine.
And today I was confronted.
It was a nightmare.
I knew that I was slipping into crappy teacher and I felt like I was drowning.
But today I think I sank.
To hear (in so many words) that you are a crappy teacher from your students...
It hurt. It hurt like no other.
I cried.
I have been crying since then.
Some have caught me, but most have ignored it.
I want to quit.
If I quit then I'll have even less money than I have now.
My paycheck isn't even here yet, but in the end it will be about $2.13.
I am sliding out of control.
I need to pull up...need to grab the wheel and pull up out of this tail spin.
2 comments:
Wady, is this about the editorial board? Because if it is, what do they know? You shouldn't let the opinions of a few small people (and they are small, in the big picture of things) get you down. I for one think you're doing a great job. I've learned from you how to pick my battles (I used to be gung ho anti-Platt, but I think now we're doing all that we can, and we shouldn't look for a conflict as I would have earlier), and that's just the start of it. Cheer up, Wady!
wady-you will always be one of the most inspiring teachers in my life. you actually give 2 shits about the lives of your students. it's the teachers that teach you life lessons that you remember. don't let those kids bother you wad. for every kid that might put you down, remember that you have hundreds of students whose lives were touched because of you.
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